jasonmagnum

so its been almost 2 years since Ive updated this thing. anyone still use it? anyways, how is everyone? I havent talked to any of the people on this in forever. I was reading some of my old posts and it was nice reliving some of my old memories. I miss hanging out with everyone that I did when I was in high school. Its too bad many of you have moved or we just simply stopped talking. Some of you were my best friends at one point. Im not sure at what point I changed or why we stopped talking really. Im sure most of its my fault and for that, I apologize. Id like to hear what everyone has been up to, even if we havent talked in a few years. Ive changed so much over the past few years its kind of crazy. I dont really know what the reason for it is, maybe just growing up I suppose? I kind of miss the old me sometimes. These days work basically controls my life. Im there 6 days out of the week and all I really think about it making money. As far as my personality goes, thats changed much too. For the better though? Im not sure. I used to be really easy to get along with and down for anything. It seems that since I left high school and started at ATC, Ive really shut others out of my life. Im extremely judgemental of others and dont let myself get to know anyone, or even make an attempt to really. Ive pretty much limited myself to only hanging out with my girlfriend caitlyn which has proven to be fine for me up until she moved to tampa. All the free time I have now has really made me realize I miss going to shows and hanging out with everyone I used to. Just chilling at my house making milkshakes or riding around in ericas car was always a good time to me. Im so quiet and awkward now and I really do hate it. I dont really know how to change that because its who I have become. I think just because I dont hang out with anyone that was so close to me and it has made me feel uncomfortable and I find it difficult to make new friends since I finished high school. I havent really met anyone since high school that I would consider to be a good friend. Most of my friends party all the time and thats just not my thing so I have no choice but to occupy my time with something on my own. Ive become so reliant on happiness from my girlfriend and now that I only see her every few weeks its really made things difficult. I dont have a best friend that I can call and just chill with. I guess I just miss the person I used to be and not the jealous, judgemental, quiet, awkward, and lonely person Ive become. Sorry for ranting so much and making this insanely long. Im not looking for pity so please dont give me any. Just something I needed to get off of my chest since there isnt really anyone that will listen or really even understand where Im coming from. Like I said though, tell me how youve been or just say whats up.

and another thing, FUCK ignorant bitches who tell you to fuck off and expect you to not be mad at them and wonder why you break up with them. I swear girls are getting dumber by the day.

Fuck ignorant rich assholes that wreck into my car, fucking lie about what actually happened and put the fucking blame on me. I had the fucking right of way and you pulled out in front of me and hit me you stupid cunt. Now because of this ignorant cunt licking asshole, my car is fucked, her insurance company doesnt want to pay for my damages because she claims I was doing 80 in a 40 and caused the accident. What the fuck are you? A cop? Did you have a radar? NO! Shut the fuck up you stupid Hindu bitch. Suck my dick and have a nice day.

I give up.

why does this shit always happen.
Ill go like 6 months without meeting 1 girl worth my time and then all of a sudden I meet 2 amazing girls that I could see myself with but I have to choose one. shit sucks man.

Im still in love with you after over 4 years.
I need to move back.

You had me at hello.

Aren't we just cutest couple ever?

I love life :)

7 more school days left and then summer!
so much to do.
Im starting at DBCC in the fall and going to school for business.
isnt that exciting.
Im not going to prom.
No date and its a waste of my money.
Instead Ill save my money and take a trip up to pittsburgh at the end of june.
I need to hang out more with everyone.
lets make plans.

Life was good.

fuck wisdom teeth.
why do they call them that anyways?
they dont make you any smarter, just in a lot of pain.
the left side of my face is swollen and I refuse to get them pulled.
I got my septum pierced. its pretty fuckin sweet.
I need a date to prom.
any takers?
and this fucker that parked next to me at school today hit my car with his door and left a tiny little bit of paint on my car. his door is fucked tomorrow.

Spring Break was fucking fun as hell.
Aside from having the most uncomfortable sleep in my car, shit was good.
Im still lacking a significant other, but what should I expect.
Daytona doesnt possess the type of girls that actually want a relationship, just ones that want a good fuck.
Oh well.
Its just my luck that the only girls I have an interest in, dont live in daytona. I dont even care anymore. its worth the drive.

You were so common, you were so cheap,
Another coke snortin' slut from the barroom scene.
But brother, I was so empty, I was so blind,
I turned my back on the truth before my very eyes.

The past like 3 girls Ive talked to, yeah that describes you.

it sucks when you want something you probably cant have.

My life be like oooohhhh ahhhh ohhhh ahhh.
Hell yes for hurricane days.
Got drunk for the first time in 11 months and had so much fun.
Almost time to go to work.
Even though I have barely any friends, I love the ones I do have.
So fuck all the haters.

sweet. I had to work today and I have to work tomorrow. My last day of summer I get to spend at moes. Then I start working 31 hours a week. Fun fun. Atleast the money will be good. I gotta start saving up so I can move outta this place.

I cant wait until I can move out.

Life keeps getting better and better.
my night was amazing <3
I want to give it a second shot.

My life is amazing right now.
Theres only one way I could be happier really.
But anyways, I got hired at moes.
Ill be working on the line.
So dont come in if I dont like you because Ill spit in your food.
So my mom invited my ex girlfriend Cassandra from pittsburgh to come stay with us for a while.
Its not gonna happen for a little while but its going to be amazing :)

Its crazy how quickly 9 months just go right down the tube.
it was good while it lasted.
Im gonna miss it.
a lot.